I feel I should have been a bit more proactive in the build up to this operation. If I had contacted Jersey and asked them to liaise a bit more with the Marsden, or even if they (Marsden) had voiced their concerns about my low white blood cells way back in the beginning of July, i could have saved myself the bother of the whole 'hospital experience' and had bloods taken over here first.... possibly Hindsight is a wonderful thing isn't it?
There is also a saying that my mother was fond of using,"No use crying over spilt milk". This particular one sprung to mind this evening when I inadvertently left the hot tap running in the utility room......for about ten minutes.......with the plug in the sink. Water is still seeping out from under the units as i type two hours later. Thats not all, the dog trotted in this evening from a race around the meadow and proceeded to leave a bloody pattern of pawprints all over the kitchen tiles. She had a cut on the pad of her hind leg and in her usual exuberant puppy style raced around greeting everybody properly whilst trailing a steady stream of bright red liquid....
This was all happening as the in-laws were leaving, I was trying in vain to cook fish for supper and mop up water with old dog towels, Steve was chasing after the dog with bleach spray and cloth, and Becky was running between the two of us offering helpful advice (!)......And then......I had a call from my consultant KG, who was kind enough to give me a little more information.
She had spoken to the Marsden and they have confirmed my surgery date of 21st August (yeah, right!!) I will probably have a CT scan around the 10th August... and she will talk to haematology doctor and work out how they can go about sorting out my low white cell count (she needs info from Marsden first ) Looks likely that I will have to have those injections of GCSF again (granulocyte colony-stimulating factor).
Ive been looking at some old blog posts to see if I can find out how my bloods were behaving, and i've printed off a few pages, I had forgotten but when they sorted out white cells the platelets dropped, and then they sorted out the platelets and the neutrophils plummeted....I just really want to know what it all means and if there is something actually more sinister happening that they're not telling me... now I'm getting paranoid.
Thank you AH for my lovely little book called "Live each day with Gratitude", I love it, and for the next few blogs I will be sharing a saying or two with you.
There are two days in the week that are not important-yesterday and tomorrow. Focus on today.
Let go off the past. Take responsibility for the facts of your life.......Move forward ...
I'm moving.....
P.s
Thanks also to JP for all the lovely gifts and sorry I was in such a tizz on Wednesday - I really do need 'serenity' in my life. xx
Greek diners...(hungry ones at that!)
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