Saturday 17th May

Thanks to the 100 or so folk that have checked out the blog page, I particularly appreciate the kind words from those of you who have left comments.

I feel like the funfair has come to town, except without the 'fun'.... and my roller coaster carriage is just cranking up that steep uphill slope, about to tumble into a deep dive leaving most of internal organs at the top.

This has been compounded by my sister leaving me today..... (guilt trip) as she is the older sibling she is the one who is supposed to be strong and supportive and not cry...... so, as my son would say "that was an epic fail on her behalf".


I'm wearing my "Jersey Live" hat, my sister is wearing Becky's cap......

I shall not go into details on this blog about all the things we got up to during the week, but its fair to say that we had a really good time, lots of talking and laughing, and I must thank my long suffering brother -in-law for putting up with us...

They went out on the RIB this morning with Jersey Seafaris along the north coast...

Now to the results of the CT scan, KG from hospital kindly phoned me at 8:15 pm after she got in from work, she apologised for being held up, and tried to explain things a little clearer, enough for even a simpleton like me could understand.

 She feels the Marsden may say that there is such minimal change in the scan other than the enlarged lymph node (increased from 11mm to 14mm) and, without me showing any other signs of illness, it will be enough to monitor the situation and ask for repeat blood tests and Ct scan in two months time. 

However they may say that there is a chance of Small Volume Disease, and there are two schools of thought on this, one is to once again leave it, as it maybe so insignificant the Chemo wont touch it, or they may say actually we think it wise that she does have Chemo, and it would hopefully 'mop it all up'.

In which case i could start chemo next week, but thats just jumping the gun.... I really dont fancy chemo, and I really dont want to leave it either, so I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place....

KG said the team at the Marsden and the team over here are excellent, and the guys reading the scans will pick up every little change/shadow whatever, and I have every confidence in their medical ability. 

The bottom line is I DONT WANT CANCER ANY MORE......