Inspired!

AGE IS JUST A NUMBER

What a 97 year old record breaker can teach us about growing older

By Charles Eugster

I've just been reading about this guy, now he really is inspiring! Think I'll have to buy his book. Look him up!

I did a yoga class this morning, It didn't go well, actually physically it's about the same as it always is, I can manage about half of the 'moves' , and at least I try hard. However this time around I could not switch off my brain, (jokes aside about not having one thank you) . 

Instead of that lovely calm feeling and being "in the zone", I was racing about the Planet Of Doom. The longer the class went on the more time I spent playing out various scenarios, that ended  very badly, and the crosser I got. 

Annoyed with myself for getting in that state in the first place, but equally annoyed with the cancer for robbing me of what should have been "time off" from this disease. 

I'm not going to lie, this has been a fairly tough week, coming to terms with all this new "no treatment" stance, not, you understand that I am rushing towards crippling chemo, or rotten radiotherapy, but its the fact that a) I can't have it anyway as my immune system is so low and b) how many tumours are meanwhile popping up unabated? 

He's quite right though , Dr NB, why have treatment needlessly, I shall just become very ill and theres a strong possibility it wont work anyway. 

At the moment if you wanted to look at the quality of my life (physically anyway ) I am 100%, and the Cancer (lets call it CD, chronic disease, ) is 0%. When that balance starts to alter and the CD is spoiling that quality, then it's time to act. 

When ( and I really want to type IF, as that's far more positive) that will be no one knows, it maybe six months, it maybe six years . 

I really don't want to waste my days churning over the same old depressing black and white film that plays in a continuing loop , and whilst the days are full of things to do and people to see and laughs to be had, which does help,  I don't want to live my life at 100 miles an hour either ( although that's what i usually do, I'd also like to be able to stop and smell the coffee)

I think thats where I need to get to, where i can be crazy busy sometimes, but also quieter and comfortable without being fretful. 

Ending with quote , 

Don't ruin a good today by thinking about a bad yesterday. 

                   

       LET IT GO