It's Tom here trying to provide you, the avid reader, with some more regular updates as I'm sure you're all very concerned about Mums condition.
I want to re-read Dads last post so I know what to follow on from, but it was almost as hard for me to read as it was for him to write. I think we're all quite emotional right now.
Mum's condition has worsened each day we've been here, and today has been no exception. As of this afternoon we're into the last phase; the one that we all knew deep down would come but never wanted to believe would.
The morphine pump is in "comfort mode" (not an actual setting), but this has meant mum has been in what I assume to be an opiate induced twighlight-like sleep since about 11am. She's lying very peacefully next to me as I write this.
She's just managed a nod to acknowledge that we're here and is obviously listening to us, but I think that her ability to speak is now very limited. I wouldn't be surprised if she gave us some one line ramble later though. The last thing she said was when she asked the nurse this morning who won the dragon boat racing?!
I could talk more about the details, but really you don't need to know much of that. All you need to know that she's been ready to go for a couple of days, and that she's very much at peace.
This morning when mum was struggling with her methadone, Jack made a joke about her always finding the simple things difficult. Unable to properly speak at the time, she responded in the only way she could - by putting up a middle finger in his general direction. We all laughed. If that's the last decent memory I have of her, I'm happy.
What a wonderful family you all are , such a credit to your amazing mum . Love and hugs, we are all thinking of you all xxxxxx
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ReplyDeleteAmazing famly. Love to you all xxx
ReplyDeleteI went through the same journey with my Brother in April and I am thinking about you all every step of the way. In our hearts and minds always. Marilee and Lee, Ashley and Nakita xxxx
ReplyDeleteLots of love to you all. 💕💕 The Goodfellow’s xx
ReplyDeleteOur thoughts are with you all. Jill was a colleague at a couple of places. When she decided to leave a job I was the one to replace her by coincidence. Our lives intertwined, my daughter Meg and her son Dan worked together, my husband Alan is Centenier in St. Martin working with your father for the parish.I loved catching up with her at parish meetings etc.Your mum's energy for life comes across in her children. Our family are thinking of you all at this sad time. Love to Jill.. Teresa, Alan, Mike, Meg Phillips... and family xx❤
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ReplyDeleteHow eloquently you all write, giving us a clear picture of your harrowing situation. Thank you for keeping so many of us who care so much so well informed. I weep for my dear friend with whom I shared many black humour jokes about our cancer conditions. I am pleased she is peaceful. How lucky you all are to have each other. My thoughts are with you.
ReplyDeleteIt's such an almighty high intensity emotional time. You are an amazing family, such a reflection of Jill. Try and look after yourselves and each other during this period . I'm pretty sure hearing is a sense that stays with us the longest, the last to fade. I recall that with my Dad. Jill is listening in on you all, and no doubt taking great comfort from hearing those she loves the most in the world . ♥ Lxo
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