Tuesday 25th November

I have started this post early this evening in the vain hope it will make more sense to those reading it, as opposed to trying to write something half decent at 10:30pm...and failing.

Yesterday was a good day, well for me at least I can't really talk about the rest of the family, I know I only saw P&E for an hour, when he came home to change in the evening before his next 'appointment'. I shall have to ask him for a 'meeting' once a week so we can catch up...

Youngest son only been home for 48 hours and his dietary requirements have already impacted on the family  shopping budget. He still has a bit of a sore leg, but i've told him exercise is good and to walk the dog... its worked so far...

This morning i had yet another wet dog walk, (its getting boring now)before hurrying off to the hospital for my blood test and doctor appointment. I nearly lost my cool in the hospital car park ( good job they didn't take my blood pressure) why do people insist on trying to drive down to the lower level when it's obviously full and so hampering cars leaving??) Bloods taken, and saw both Dr A and Dr H.. ( I am of course a special case....) anyway blood results as follows;

Hb 9.3 ( a little low)
White cells 2.9 (good)
Neutrophils 2.05 ( ok)
Platelets 155 (good)

So, based on those results I can go ahead with Chemo Thursday, but still on 75 % dose, I'd had 100% on first cycle and that wiped me out and i needed blood transfusion etc, so maybe just maybe by giving me a lesser dosage, we can scrape through the next three cycles. Thats the plan as it stands at the moment.  I am also getting at appointment in a couple of weeks for a CT scan, standard mid treatment. I hope it may show that my blood clot has dissipated, although it does seem as if I may be able to take tablets instead of the injections next month, I think I may have to carry on all the way through Chemo.

I also had a look at my CA125.... the week of the first chemo 9th October it was 1,820, staggeringly high, remember the 'level' is below 35. On the 27th October three weeks later it was 276, and i should know results on Thursday of todays test.

Leaving the hospital I just made it to my yoga class, I love it, although I can't do half the 'moves', it makes me feel good. Picked Bex up from town at 1pm as she had caught the bus in, she now does another job as an office administrator, three afternoons a week, so a busy bee.

Went off to the hairdressers this afternoon, pleased there is still hair to cut, and so far it doesn't seem to be 'thinning' either, a real bonus. Having organised Dan the Dog walker to do his job , i went to the supermarket to stock up mostly for his benefit, he has missed a good cup of tea ( how old is he? 23 or 73??) sausages, and cheese!

Back home the fireman was just leaving for a night shift, and said he'd do 'my' injection as P&E is not due home until 10:30/11pm. It was about five minutes after he left that I realised we'd forgotten ( despite me writing on a piece of paper INJECTION in big black writing on the fridge door). Hmmmm, bit of a problem then... I'd tried to rope Dan into the 'injection giving' game yesterday but he was having none of it. There was only one thing for it I had to do it myself.

At this point my daughter told me not to be ridiculous and I would go into anaphylactic shock, I said didn't she mean vasovagal ( I have fainted before it is true...), and annoyed she said she wasn't watching  or helping and stomped off. Dan said, did i even know what I was doing? But he did stand and watch me, saying afterwards "its probably better doing it myself anyway'! So, I feel very proud of myself tonight, but fear I lose out ultimately, as that was my only way of getting any attention in this house!!!!!!!


Look what my clever girl has just made tonight....

A little Christmas deco....