Thursday 20th December

Thursday 20^th December

Dog walking in St Ouen....

 

Although I have never been ‘bungee’ jumping, and never intend to, I feel like I’m tied on a piece of rope, pinging back and forth- (hold that visual!)

I didn’t exactly stride into hospital at 1pm with a spring in my step and a smile on my face that’s for sure. After a night of worry and doubts about the whole saga and still unsure in myself about the yes/no chemo debate, it was with some trepidation that I awaited the blood test results.

I had my daily chat with the lovely Dr H, who then went off to find out the results- and in doing so bumped into a colleague and used the opportunity to describe my ‘case’ and ask his advice on it. To which the reply was “defer”! The clotting platelets had dropped again this time down to 30……(and no, he didn’t bang his head on the wall!)

Once again I had been cannulated ready to receive chemo and it wasn’t going to happen, not sure my frayed nerves could take much more, let alone my increasingly battered veins!!

To top it all they were discussing a ‘liver test’ reading which had been exceptionally high, with no obvious reason. I really don’t need issues with my liver on top of everything else!

The upshot of today’s events mean NO Chemotherapy until after Christmas, back into hospital 27^th for an early blood test and Chemo in the afternoon.

Remember there is always someone worse off than you- I tell myself on a daily basis!

Hurrah my aunt has arrived, blame Guernsey, they are the ones who had fog and a closed airport yesterday and were playing ‘catch up’ most of today!! I am sorry to say that she has not done one single job since she got here- and she’s been here 4 hours- shocking!!

“Undisturbed calmness of mind is attained by cultivating friendliness toward the happy, compassion for the unhappy, delight in the virtuous, and indifference toward the wicked.” ~ Yoga Sutras