Thursday 17th January

Thursday 17^th January

I do have to confess that out of the blue on the cliff path walk this morning, I did, momentarily shed a few tears….

Stupidly I feel a bit like I’ve been taking a very long exam, and although I’ve tried really hard, revised, remained upbeat and positive, changed my diet and given it my best shot, I don’t know if I’ve ‘passed’ or not.

Cutting to the chase so to speak, hubby and I went along to see Dr H this afternoon at 4pm; he was as compassionate as always and explained that the CT scan had remained unchanged from the last two scans. There are still two slightly enlarged nodes, one in the abdomen and one in the right armpit- the former could  be scar tissue left over from the operation , and the later could well have been there all my life. 

Dr H is also pleased that my CA 125 has remained at 6 since July 9^th, he says that he has never seen so many continuing 6’s, also another good sign (he also said not to be concerned if it fluctuates, this is normal). All of the relevant information has been sent to the Marsden, and that’s where my ‘sticking point’ is- they only review Jersey cases on a Tuesday morning, so the chance of them looking at my individual case next week is remote. However that doesn’t bother me, but until I actually receive written confirmation from them stating as Dr H put it I am in CR- ‘Complete Remission’ I won’t rest easy. Hubby is also cautious about celebrating too early as the Marsden have been known to ‘rain on my parade’ before now!!!!

Judging by the amount of texts, calls and enquires about my impending results I feel the whole Island has collectively been holding its breath for most of today- hence an earlier blog. 

A simple thank you to everyone doesn’t seem satisfactory but I really DO MEAN THANK YOU!! I know that all the good wishes, prayers and candles have helped enormously.

I think it’s a ‘two quote’ night…..

“Cancer is a journey, but you walk the road alone.  There are many places to stop along the way and get nourishment - you just have to be willing to take it.”  ~

Emily Hollenberg

“Fear can keep us up all night long, but faith makes one fine pillow.”  

~

Philip Gulley

Family champagne celebrations!